Listen to your Heart Beat
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Listen to your Heart Beat

I don't believe people fall out of love.  True love is a state of being, not an emotion.

It's been nearly 4 years since my divorce.  I have been in the process of healing.  Many would say 4 years is a long time to take for healing from a divorce.  If you allow yourself to really love someone and it leaves you, it's going to take time to heal.  Especially if you want to love again.  You don't want to carry any excess baggage to another relationship.

This song by Stephen Curtis Chapman is my hearts cry... it helped me let go and let God heal me.

Miracle of the Moment

It's time for letting go
All of our "if onlies"
Cause we don't have a time machine

And even if we did
Would we really want to use it
Would we really want to go change everything

Cause we are who and where and what we are for now
And this is the only moment we can do anything about

So breathe it in and breathe it out
And listen to your heartbeat
There's a wonder in the here and now
It's right there in front of you
And I don't want you to miss the miracle of the moment
 


There's only One who knows
What's really out there waiting
And all the moments yet to be
And all we need to know
Is He's out there waiting
To Him the future's history

And He has given us a treasure called right now
And this is the only moment we can do anything about

So breathe it in and breathe it out
And listen to your heartbeat
There's a wonder in the here and now
It's right there in front of you
And I don't want you to miss the miracle of the moment

And if it brings you tears
Then taste them as they fall
Let them soften your heart

And if it brings you laughter
Then throw your head back
And let it go
Let it go
You gotta let it go

And listen to your heartbeat

Now I feel like I am ready to dip my toes back into the water.  I miss male companionship and intimacy.  I won't jump into any relationship.  I would like to meet someone I can chat with and get to know.  I am in no hurry so please be patient with me.  Cool

Comments:
spoonman

Aug 17 2008, 08:51:09 AM

I FEEL THE SAME WAY YOU DO I  AM GOING ON 2YRS



  
quietchaos

Aug 17 2008, 04:55:30 PM

Hey thanks for the Kudo's!  I envy you.. knowing this at this time in your life should give you a much greater chance at having a successful life long relationship now..  If you remember "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will make your path straight"

God has that special person out there for you.  Pray for her Cool 



  
quietchaos

Aug 17 2008, 04:56:43 PM

Hey thanks for the Kudo's!  I envy you.. knowing this at this time in your life should give you a much greater chance at having a successful life long relationship now..  If you remember "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge and He will make your path straight"

God has that special person out there for you.  Pray for her Cool 



  
j_brad

Aug 18 2008, 04:18:25 AM

    I don't believe that love ever leaves either...but other emotions can grow in us that blind us...we are who we are NOT because of our experiences thru life...but how we interpet those experiences...

    Be thankful you have the ability to love someone so deep that "getting over" them isn't an over night thing...

     I understand...my x left 1 1/2 years ago, she has had several lovers since then, thinking nothing of it...I have not yet been able to even think about another woman without her filling my memories...

     I read something a while back that made a whole lot if sence...I don't miss you anymore...I miss who I thought you were...

   



  
quietchaos

Aug 23 2008, 03:36:24 AM
Thank you for that, your so right.  And that is how it is.. I don't miss him anymore just the person I thought he was.  He too has had several wives since the divorce.  Actually married someone one year after it was final in the same month we were married.  One of his wives searched me out, found my number and called me.  She just wanted to ask me if he had treated me as poorly as she did her.  I told her no.  The person she described wasn't the man I thought I knew.  Odd how you can think you know someone after being with them for 5 years and still not know them.  Oh well, all the bitterness and anger is gone, lately I have just felt led to pray for him.  Yes I am blessed to be able to love someone that deeply.  Thanks for opening my eyes to that.